[2006-05-27]_4:49 p.m.
rants and rants

it is decided
that my ways are to change
course heading coordinates
all that can be
will

i cannot
will not
be left behind watching
sweeping up my hopes
and encouraging yours

i will not stand by
and watch my desires
elude me
face to face

i thought it better
this way
than none
but failed
a grade below an F
to grasp
that percentages are misleading
and im tired of having
my rib cage ripped open

for it has not healed in so long

that i am forgetting
please be temporary
i have forgot
how to love myself.

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