[2005-09-15]_12:28 a.m.
change
I should be happy
but the part of me
the part I hate
the part that eats at me like a flesh eating virus
that part
as bad as it is
overpowers
and tell me to feel bad
because
I deserve to
and so I sip my drink
annd pretend
that all is in accord
and scream inside
I'm tired of these surprises
that keep me away from
nervous breakdown
I'd feel the otherwise if it was flipped
but I'm growing tired
of being so bitter
of being so predictable
I need a change.....
from thee bottom of a fountain if neccessary.