[2006-07-27]_11:29 p.m.
timely
the current state of the union of my mind
deserves no bragging rights
not tonight
as the premature end of my stress-free day turned stress-free week arrives with both suffocating arms outstretched,
i find my self unprepared, fatigued, and downright shameful of my current being.
apparently with age, and a champagne of beers, comes an understanding of something typically denied. I feel as though i have underestimated everyone and everything in my life thus far. That i have allowed too many the experience i emit, and now its time to clean house.
And it is impossible to clean a house out when you lack one entirely, when you feel anything but at home when you sleep in your bed, when you live in memories from the past, and hope that when your eyes open, they somehow merged with now, and that feeling in your stomache, be it from skipping your 4th meal, not of worrying about how many stone you are, but of just feeling so numb, its this feeling that i speak of and have tried hiding deep down inside for so long. And its this feeling that i did not fathom anything close to an equal advisary. Thinking with superhero thoughts and emotional repressing beverages.
i think its time i cocooned. i think its time i took a break from my monotonous life. i think its time i finally changed.
have you ever heard of a born again william daniel?