[2005-11-18]_2:50 a.m.
truth
these drunken nights
leave me wondering
exactly why
I throw money down the john
every night is the same
with the same dissapointment
of excitement lackingness
I wonder
what it is that I am seeking
what it is that I am longing for
becuase I'm pretty sire I have not found it thus far
and I'm relented to my memories
of beautiful times
long ago
not today
or yesterday
but that time thhat seems so close
but is mathematically
far away
that's all it seems I've got
these days
and it leaves me
drunk and ready to vomit
wondering....
is this the time of my life
is this what I've been waiting for
is this how I will die?