[2005-08-19]_5:39 p.m.
black betty
a wonderful dream
is what i awoke from
to this blackness
this uncertainty
not knowing exactly what happened
last night
not having any ideas
no speaking from that direction
complete silence
accompanied by laughter
a towel on the ground
complete nudity
a crime scene too perfect
to announce solved
i dont understand
it all seems so perfect
a reminder of many from the past
all accumulated into one person
all the good qualities
but the attachment doesnt seem to be present
in the eyes
theres nothing showing
nothing for me to feed from
like cuddling with one
fresh from a shower
wet and cold
a late night scurry across hard wood floors
the feeling i get in my chest
when i get angry
that tightness
sqeezing
suffocating my heart
enslaving my emotions
to come out another day
all at once
do i want to know what happened?