[2004-02-15]_7:31 p.m.
tainted love
i dont know these days
what i want in life
or how to get it
i feel like
starting new
so fresh and so clean
i think that its coming down the pipe
hes gonna leave me
here
and i will survive
and so will he
but its gonna hurt so bad
because no matter what i think
i cant think of any
reasonable way that
it could survive
without one of us completely
changing
and we both know
that wont happen
i wish we could have talked more
about nothing at all
and felt comfortable
doing this
sharing a moment
smiling at one another
not so much anger
or lack of trust
i wish we could have been
not so early
and then maybe
it would have worked
nothing has happened
but i smell it in the air
and feel it in my heart
squeeze
hard
but you know
everything that i did doubt
my love was never included in that
i will always feel it
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what will come of this
the following days will be very interesting
indeed.
and i wish i could imagine a way
anything
but i think we both share the same feeling
missing the past
a little more each day
but we will survive.
i love you joseph
sometimes you made it quite hard for me to tell you it
but it never stopped
and it never will.
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whenever there is a hole in my heart, i like to fill it up with alcohol.
ciao